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I don't know what's going on, but lately I've felt obsessed with appearance. Usually I'm so self conscious, and I don't know if I should blame it on the upcoming holiday but I feel like I have to do so much to try and look OK. I mean, yeah, I'm joining the Y tomorrow but I have been planning that for months. But then, I started tanning again, which isn't so bad; it's about that time of year. Yet the more I think about it, more and more things keep popping into my head that I could do: get a pedicure, new clothes, redo my hair. What is wrong with me? I don't usually care so much about what other people think, at least not of how I look, at least not anymore.
I can't figure out if it's a deep seeded desire for self-improvement, but something doesn't feel right about starting with the outside. Maybe I feel stuck in a rut, and that my outer appearance is the only thing I can change. It's one thing to continue to lose the weight, but what's with all this other stuff?